Genre: AU, NC-17, Drama
Warning: Smut, crappy plot
Summary: KiBum finally found the man he was looking for, and he’s ready to return the favor.
Notes: I got the idea of this story when I was watching Bom’s solo MV here. The song keeps playing over and over again in my mind and I think it suits Hyukkie. This story was done really quick, I’m not even so sure about the plot. Please bear with me this time ok?
Oh one more thing: HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY HYUKKIE!! Stay sexy ok?
KiBum finally found the man he’d been searching for months. He had imagined how their meeting would be like, he knew that the man he was looking for would not be on his best condition, but he never thought it would be like this.
The search brought him to an address in the low end of the city, despite his manager telling him it was not safe for him to go there on his own, KiBum insisted that he had to do this. It was a promise he made to himself
He knocked the door three times, before he heard someone answering, followed by the sound of heavy wheels against mouldy flooring.
The door creaked loudly as it was pushed open from the inside, and KiBum knew he had found who he was looking for.
The older man smiled, it was as sincere as KiBum could remember. The wheelchair, however, surprised KiBum.
“No, ... just Lee HyukJae”, he replied, “May I help you?”
“My name is Kim KiBum, do you have time to talk for a moment?”
HyukJae shrugged, he pulled back so KiBum could get in through the door, “Please make yourself comfortable”.
KiBum looked around the small apartment. The window was small, with a torn curtain trying to block the afternoon sun into the room. The walls were bare and battered by time, only a few pieces of furniture filled the room, from the look of it, HyukJae used the same room to sleep. He kept the apartment as spacious as possible so he could move around in his wheelchair.
“HyukJae-sshi”, KiBum started, “Do you remember me?”
HyukJae stared at the actor, same puzzled expression in his face as he answered, “You’re an actor, I know you from your movies and dramas ...”
KiBum’s heart bled a little as he heard HyukJae’s answer.
“... this is not some sort of a prank, right?”
“No”, KiBum shook his head, “Not a prank.”
HyukJae was much paler than the EunHyuk KiBum could remember, he was thinner, his hair was plain black and unstyled, he wore a worn-out t shirt and a pair of track pants. But what broke KiBum’s heart was to see HyukJae’s broken smile. This man was not the man he used to be, KiBum hoped he could mend the broken soul and placed the bright smile he once knew into the man’s face.
“I don’t mean to be rude ... but what brought you here to my place?”
“We’ve met a long time a go and I was in the area when I heard that you live here, so I thought I should come by to return a favor”, KiBum replied.
“We did?” HyukJae tried to fish the memory out of his mind but didn’t seem to be successful, “I’m very sorry that I can not remember, KiBum-sshi”, he gave a weak smile.
“Don’t worry about that, are you free for tonight? I’d like to take you out for dinner”.
HyukJae looked surprised at the offer, “I think I’d have to decline, it’ll be troublesome for me to go out you see ...” he motioned to the wheelchair, “I really appreciate your offer KiBum-sshi, but ...”
“Don’t worry, I will take care of that”, KiBum replied.
“KiBum-sshi ... I don’t think I’ll make a good sight in public ...” HyukJae continued.
“We’ll go to my house then”, KiBum cut in, “You don’t have to worry about being seen in public and I’ll carry you if you’d let me.”
HyukJae blushed at KiBum’s words.
“Now, will you have dinner with me?”
HyukJae finally agreed, “Yes.”
In the next hour, KiBum learned about what happened to HyukJae.
Once well known as a famous dancer by the name of EunHyuk, the older man had a bad accident two years a go. The accident damaged his most valuable asset, his legs. Despite the doctors’ order, HyukJae continued to dance and ignored the warnings. The doctors’ prediction was right, not long afterwards, HyukJae fell into another accident, and this time his legs refused to move.
The world ended for a bird that could not fly, the same with a dancer who could not dance. HyukJae’s life turned upside down after the second accident. He spent fortune trying to find a cure, but resulted in disappointment. After his long time boyfriend left him, HyukJae was practically alone. He tried hard to make ends meet and ended up living in the run down apartment alone. He didn’t want to be a burden to his relatives, not that they would take him in anyways, his parents had deceased years a go.
KiBum could sense that the former dancer was not comfortable with himself. He remembered EunHyuk used to say that he felt the most alive when he was dancing, but now he was left in this broken body, he could no longer dance, he couldn’t even move freely, being bound into the wheelchair. His soul was broken, after two years of imprisonment in this broken body.
How fast had the wheel turned ... KiBum thought to himself.
“... so KiBum-sshi, you haven’t told me how we met”, HyukJae’s question brought KiBum back from his thoughts.
“It was years a go ... long before I started to act ... Why don’t we have dinner first? What do you want to eat?” KiBum smiled. They had reached his mansion and the driver opened the car door for them.
HyukJae was a bit startled when KiBum suddenly picked him up to carry him out of the car, “I don’t think you can use the wheelchair to get through the stairs”, he explained.
HyukJae blushed as KiBum carried him, bridal style, he put his arms around KiBum’s neck for support.
“I’m heavier than I look you know”, he said.
KiBum only smiled at that, HyukJae was lighter than he first thought, he had no difficulties in carrying HyukJae into his house.
KiBum took HyukJae to his private room, he wished to talk with HyukJae in private. He told his maid to order dinner from a restaurant and then closed the door.
HyukJae tried to ask KiBum several times about how they met and what he meant by ‘returning a favor’ but KiBum wouldn’t give a direct answer. He dodged the questions and changed the topic whenever HyukJae asked the question.
Dinner was wonderful. KiBum was happy to see HyukJae was eating well. After dinner, they sat by the fireplace, chatting idly.
“You have to tell me how we met, KiBum-sshi, because I really feel bad for not remembering anything”, HyukJae questioned, “Please?”
KiBum tucked a straying strand of hair out of HyukJae’s face, he smiled before answering, “Five years a go, one night ... I was on my way out of the TV station after a failed audition”, KiBum continued, “... and then I saw you, you were there with your friends after a shooting, ... anyways, you helped me and you introduced me to your friend, a director ... he gave me my first TV drama role.”
“... the next year I got my big break at another drama and I got a big role in a movie the next year”, KiBum added, “I wanted to see you but I couldn’t find you.”
“It wasn’t a big deal KiBum-sshi, I was just merely giving you a business card”, HyukJae said, “You did the rest.”
“I wasn’t completely honest when I said I wanted to meet you to thank you actually ...”
“I wanted to do this”, KiBum leaned forward and captured HyukJae’s lips in a kiss.
HyukJae moaned softly into the kiss, KiBum took the opportunity to deepen the kiss. He’d been waiting for this since that night five years a go, to taste the sweet plum lips and make the owner of those luscious lips as his own.
HyukJae was taken a back and realized what was happening seconds later. He pulled back from the kiss abruptly.
“K-KiBum-sshi ... this ... we shouldn’t ...” he stammered.
KiBum’s answer was to kiss him again, this time his fingers caressing HyukJae’s pale cheek, HyukJae couldn’t resist the kiss and when KiBum pulled away for breath, HyukJae was looking back at him with glassed eyes.
KiBum didn’t give HyukJae a chance to ask, he kissed a trail down the white neck, to HyukJae’s collar bone and sucked a spot just above HyukJae’s pulsing vein.
“Relax”, the younger man whispered sensually on HyukJae’s ear, “Trust me”, he licked the shell and it was the last warning HyukJae had before KiBum hooked his fingers on HyukJae’s shirt to take it off the lithe body.
HyukJae squirmed uncomfortably as KiBum undressed him. KiBum stopped for a moment.
“Will you let me do this?”
HyukJae looked a lot like a lost puppy at the moment, KiBum couldn’t control himself at the sight. He wanted to take the older man and he knew HyukJae wanted to. It felt like ages when HyukJae finally nod slowly.
“But please ... I don’t want you to see ...”
“My scars ... they’re ugly”, HyukJae answered with broken pride.
KiBum looked into the chocolate eyes, he said nothing but took off HyukJae’s shirt.
A large scar was on HyukJae’s side, it was faded and healed but left a long line from his waist to his back. KiBum hooked his fingers on HyukJae’s track pants and lowered the piece of garment. A couple more scars marred HyukJae’s pale white limbs.
HyukJae’s heart was beating hard under his rib cage, KiBum though he could hear the sound of his thumping heart. Ignoring HyukJae’s nervousness, KiBum kissed HyukJae’s neck, his fingers tracing lines on HyukJae’s body, down to his legs.
“There’s nothing wrong with you”, he licked a path down to HyukJae’s chest, kissing a nipple before taking the rapidly hardening nub into his mouth. HyukJae cried out in surprise as KiBum sucked and toyed with it.
“Uuh ... mmm ...” HyukJae linked his fingers on KiBum’s scalp, his body tensed and sensitive.
KiBum smirked to himself, HyukJae’s moans were so sensual and sweet, his finger traced the scar that was on HyukJae’s torso, while his tongue licked a trail down to HyukJae’s naval.
He kissed HyukJae’s stomach and his fingers found HyukJae’s member. Already hard and dripping pre-cum under his treatment.
HyukJae moaned loud when KiBum engulfed his throbbing erection. It had been too long since he felt this way. KiBum ignored HyukJae’s feeble protests and started to suck, it didn’t take long for HyukJae’s years of bottled desires to break free and shuddered as he climaxed.
KiBum smiled to himself as he saw HyukJae was laying on the matress, panting heavily, eyes mirrored questions.
“Y-you don’t have to ...”
“Ssh ...” KiBum planted a kiss to silence HyukJae’s questions, “This is something that I’ve been wanting to do for a long time”.
HyukJae didn’t reply, instead, he ran his fingers down to KiBum’s clothed body.
“I want nothing more at the moment”, KiBum said, he helped HyukJae to unbutton his own shirt and pants. HyukJae’s face blushed as he freed KiBum’s engorged erection.
“You’ll need to spread these legs wider KiBum-sshi, you see I can’t help myself to prepare myself ...” HyukJae informed shamefully.
“Don’t worry, just enjoy”, KiBum hovered on top of HyukJae, kissing him again and roaming his hands all over the pale body, positioning the ex-dancer for what to come carefully.
“Nngh ...” HyukJae moaned softly as he felt a slick finger entered his tight opening.
“Does it hurt Hyukkie?” concern laced KiBum’s tone.
“No ... just keep going”, HyukJae panted. How long had it been since the last time? His former lover, DongHae, never bothered to prepare him with such gentleness. Well, that was way long before he was disgusted by HyukJae’s scars and stopped making love with him.
KiBum carefully inserted another finger. HyukJae wanted so much to arch his back, give a better angle for KiBum, but he couldn’t.
KiBum placed a pillow under his body, so he could prepare HyukJae properly. Another slender finger was inserted into HyukJae’s tight hole and his brath was caught in his throath.
When KiBum pulled back, HyukJae was breathing heavily.
“Will you let me in, Hyukkie?” KiBum asked.
HyukJae nodded hurriedly, his mind blank of all thoughts.
KiBum coated his own erection with lube, he applied a generous amount of lube, not wanting to hurt HyukJae. He pulled HyukJae’s legs to his shoulder, kissing each calf as he looked into HyukJae’s eyes.
“Ugh ...” HyukJae let out a low moan as KiBum’s member entered his puckered hole. He could feel KiBum entering him slowly, KiBum also moaned in pleasure, the tightness around him was unbearable. HyukJae was so deliciously tight and hot, he almost lost control.
KiBum’s hand found HyukJae’s member and he tightened his fingers around it, tugging it back to life to distract the older man from the pain he was experiencing.
He pulled out of HyukJae’s tight entrance, only to ram back in. HyukJae was perfect, he was tight and hot, his insides refused to let go of KiBum’s member, when KiBum pushed back into the hot cavern, HyukJae’s hungry hole swallowed greedily.
Soon, KiBum lost control of his lust, he pistoned in and out of HyukJae’s inviting warmth, his lips caught HyukJae’s lips in a deep kiss. All that matter was the urgency to reach his peak, he had gone this far to get the man who only visited him through his dreams after all these years.
HyukJae let out a low moan as KiBum continued to pound into his abused prostate. He had never felt like this before. Even not when he was with DongHae and DongHae was his first love.
He tightened his hold on KiBum’s back and let out a cry as he reached his peak. His organ erupted hard between their bodies, his passage tightened impossibly hard around KiBum’s cock, he wished he could raise his body to gain a higher pleasure but he couldn’t.
His peak triggered KiBum to orgasm as well. KiBum’s hard cock twitched inside HyukJae and soon he spilled his seed inside HyukJae with a muffled cry.
“Mmmh ...” HyukJae whimpered as KiBum pulled his spent arousal out of HyukJae’s body.
Just then KiBum realized that the older man’s eyes were brimming with tears and suddenly he felt bad for taking things too fast.
“You alright Hyukkie?” KiBum caressed HyukJae’s face.
“Why are you crying?” KiBum wiped the ex-dancer’s eyes.
The hiccup HyukJae let out was so cute KiBum had to restrain himself from glomping the older man. He waited patiently for HyukJae to answer.
“I ... I just want to ... uh ... Thank you KiBum-sshi ... I haven’t felt like this ... in a very long time”.
KiBum placed a kiss on HyukJae’s neck.
“Do you want this to last?”
HyukJae’s eyes widened.
“Are you ...?”
HyukJae blushed hard at the comment.
“Don’t worry, I’m not intrerested in marriage at the moment”, KiBum continued, “But I’d love to have you around ... and have a relationship with you.”
“But I ... look at me KiBum-sshi, I am ... useless ...”
“Just promise me one thing ...?”
HyukJae bit his lip, waiting for KiBum to continue.
“Learn to love me?”
It was HyukJae’s turn to smile.
Five years a go
KiBum was so close to giving up, he had fought his way to find himself a role in the upcoming TV drama, but despite the role being so small and unimportant, he failed again. And he knew that was because he had no connection in the industry.
This industry sucks, KiBum thought, despite graduating from acting classes with good credits, he had to find himself in a slump because all those rich kids only needed to tell the producers their daddy’s name to land themselves a role.
This would be the last, KiBum decided, he would go back home to his hometown and find himself a normal job and forget about his dreams of being a nation-wide known actor.
KiBum sighed and walked out of the building, he was too busy sulking, he didn’t see a figure running over him. The next thing he knew, a body was on top of him.
“I’m really sorry!” the stranger exclaimed, “I didn’t see you and ... ah ...” he saw KiBum’s files, his portfolio and CVs, were all over the place, “I’m really really sorry!” he tried to help KiBum gathering the papers but some of them were already blown away by the autumn wind.
“It’s okay, I’m giving up anyways”, KiBum said.
The young man’s eyes widened in surprise, “Wait a minute, are you the one who played the main role at T-ara’s first music video?”
KiBum nodded, the small role was not even memorable enough for T-ara’s fans and he’d been told that a role in a not-so-well-known girl group’s music video would not do any good for his career.
“You were good you know”, he kept talking, “Hey where are you going?”
“Home”, KiBum didn’t even care anymore with his files.
“If I tell you that your acting in that music video was great, will you trust me?”
KiBum turned to see the older man, “Thanks, but it doesn’t matter anymore huh?”
The stranger fumbled with something from his pocket and gave it to KiBum, “Will you try once more? I really think your acting deserves a chance ... Go to this office tomorrow afternoon around 4, find Kim YeSung, he’s auditioning for a new drama, if he asks just tell him that Lee EunHyuk sent you.”
A car approached them, the driver honked loudly to get attentions.
“Hyukkie! What are you doing?! Let’s go!” the driver called out to the man who was talking to KiBum.
“Promise me you’ll try!”
“Meet me when you’re a famous actor okay?” the dancer gave a wide gummy smile.
“EunHyuk! Hurry up!!” his friend called out rudely.
KiBum smiled in satisfaction as he watched the man he’d been searching for the last few years asleep in his bed. He found out about the man who helped him as soon as he got the role at his first drama. He’d been trying to show his gratitude but their paths never crossed.
He heard about HyukJae dating his fellow dancer, Lee DongHae, and it filled himself with jealousy. But he never got the chance to entertain himself with the idea of taking HyukJae as his own, since he was very busy with his career. Not long after his second movie, KiBum lost track of HyukJae. The man seemed to be completely gone from the face of the earth. He heard that HyukJae was involved in an accident but never got the chance to find him.
Now HyukJae was all his. KiBum traced his fingers on the smooth white cheek, down to the plump lips. He smiled to himself. He made it ...
HyukJae’s eyes fluttered open, slowly they were foccusing and as the realization hit him, HyukJae blushed cutely.
“How long have you been staring at me?”
KiBum gave a smug laugh, “Quite a while, why?”
HyukJae played with his lower lip, “Uh ... why?”
“Because you’re cute?” KiBum answered.
HyukJae blushed harder, he just realized that he was very naked under the blanket and KiBum was only wearing his birthday suit.
“Is there anything that you want?” HyukJae asked.
“Actually there is ...” KiBum’s mind quickly drifted off to an activity he would love to do with HyukJae that involving a bed and no clothes.